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Last year, H2K was a newcomer in the LCS, Hjarnan and Febiven were the carries of the team in Challenger Series and Kasing was not even there.
Then, the team qualified for the LCS, Febiven left for the newly rebuild Fnatic and Kasing came some times after. The team changed, but their strenght was still there, they were even better than they seemed in the Challenger Series and they began to show up really strong.
In the end, H2K qualified for Worlds and, despite not performing that well, H2K left with a really good experience, even facing SKT in the group stage.
Of the 3 Europeans teams, H2K was the only one leaving early and, with their Worlds gone, the team needed to focus again on Europe.
After many weeks and months, H2K finally announced a new roster, with only Ryu and Odoamne remaining. Their genius botlane was not there anymore and it would be really hard to replace them. But H2K replaced them, perfectly, with the arrivals of Forgiven and Vander. Jankos also signed to replace Loulex, marking a big addition to the new roster.
At the beginning of the Split, Fnatic and Origen were still the big favorites, especially after their performances at Worlds. Fnatic saw their Korean top side leaving for America and brought back another Korean duo while Origen only added PowerOfEvil to their roster, making them the contender number 1.
Then, H2K and Vitality were destined to face eachother for the third place. But reality is different than expectations, and today, H2K is on the top of the standings and could be crowned as the new Kings in Europe.
But before that, they will have to face others talented teams and surprises to achieve that. Yes Fnatic and Origen are struggling, but they begin to look stronger. And then, Vitality and G2 Esports are looking to take the crown too, and G2 is not only the biggest surprise so far, but probably the strongest team alongside H2K and they could clearly pretend to the title.
With a lot of issues and problems since the start of the season, H2K still managed to make his way through the top. Ryu was not there for few games, replaced by Selfie, who did a great job, and Forgiven was still under a possibility to not end the season and the playoffs few days ago.
Right now, things are different, H2K has no problems left outside of the game. They still have works to do inside it but they perform well and if things goes on this way, H2K is the big favorite to succeed to Fnatic and lead the charge of Europe till Summer.
H2K is on the way for the crown, but the road has not reach his destination yet and they will have to be careful to achieve it. After all, the path is still uncertain.
Aujourd'hui, après une éclatante victoire face à Fnatic, Forg1ven était attendue pour une interview comme il y en a à chaque fin de rencontre.
Seulement, ce qui ne devait qu'être une banale interview s'est vite transformée en cauchemar. En effet, le génie grec a annoncé avoir reçu une lettre de son gouvernement, lui informant l'obligation d'effectuer son service militaire.
Cette nouvelle pourrait non seulement affaiblir très clairement la structure d'H2K mais cela pourrait surtout mettre fin à la carrière professionnelle de Forg1ven.
Ce n'est pas la première fois que ce dernier fait fasse à des problèmes d'envergure, et pour cause, Konstantinos Tzortziou, de son véritable nom, avait été sanctionné à plusieurs reprises par le passé.
En 2014, Forg1ven recevait un premier avertissement de la part de Riot Games (créateurs de League of Legends) et se voyait punir d'une amende de 1000$ après avoir enfreint plusieurs règles de bienséance de l'organisation.
Mais ce n'est pas tout, la saison dernière, l'AD Carry, désormais chez Gambit Gaming, se retrouvait à nouveau sous le feu des projecteurs après l'annonce d'un ban pour 4 matchs consécutifs et ce juste avant le début des Playoffs. Il sera alors remplacé par Pinoy dans la formation russe.
Venait alors les Championnats du Monde et la belle réussite des équipes européennes. Forg1ven quant à lui était dans le flou, Gambit n'existerait plus en 2016, l'équipe était vendue à Vitality. Son avenir était dès lors incertain.
En début de saison, Forg1ven faisait son grand retour, cette fois dans la formation d'H2K avec la difficile tâche de remplacer Hjarnan au poste d'AD Carry.
Une équipe plus forte que jamais qui ne laissait échapper qu'une game à Fnatic avant que des problèmes n'affectent la structure. En effet, le midlaner Ryu se voyait interdit de jouer à cause de problèmes de visa, comme plusieurs autres joueurs de la scène.
H2K parviendra à continuer ses bonnes performances malgré tout et, avec le retour récent de Ryu, l'équipe semblait pouvoir devenir de plus en plus forte. Cependant, ce nouvel obstacle apportée par le gouvernement Grec pourrait réellement cause du tord, non seulement à la structure mais surtout à Konstantinos lui-même.
Une nouvelle interruption de carrière pour lui pourrait clairement mettre fin à sa carrière car il pourrait perdre ici neuf mois de compétition, ce qui serait un véritable désastre.
A cette heure, Forg1ven, en compagnie de ses proches et de la structure qui l'a accueillie, sont en train de chercher les solutions qui pourraient s'offrir à lui mais ceci ne semble guère facile.
La seule chose que nous, en tant que fans, curieux, admirateurs, pouvont faire, est de montrer notre soutien envers le meilleur AD Carry que l'Europe arbore en son sein.
July 24th of 2015, Fnatic goes 18-0 in the Summer Split, beating every record in the whole scene, becoming the first team ever to go undefeated.
October 25th, Fnatic isn't able to meet the expectations of a Worlds Championships final and fall to the KOO Tigers in an one-sided BO5. Europe is no more in the competition and the final will be 100% Korean.
One month later, the team announce the departure of their 2 Korean's stars, Reignover and Huni. Their destination will be unknown for 2 weeks.
Then, on December 8, Immortals (a group of investors led by Noah Winston), after acquiring Team 8 LCS spot, finally announce his brand new roster. Huni and Reignover are there, alongside the last Summer Split champion, Pobelter, Adrian (ex-Team Impulse) and Wildturtle (ex-TSM).
For hours, days, weeks, the community is talking about this team. They could easily become one of the favorites and reign over, just like their jungler, the North America.
But some are skeptics, TSM is, like always, seen as the big favorite. The fans don't believe in Wildturtle anymore, especially after his last year of underperformances. Adrian, after deciding to stop playing to go back to his studies, finally come back on his decision, but people are not really confident on him, some even says he was the weak point of Impulse, they are wrong.
Then comes Pobelter, champion with CLG after a crushing victory over the rival TSM, his transfer was one of the most surprising. Huhi was prefered to him despite his good games. Pobelter decided to quit CLG, not wishing to be on the bench. Certainly the best decision of his life.
Huni and Reignover were unknown before coming to Fnatic. Reignover was pro before in a team called Incredible Miracle, but they were no miracles and Reignover was seen as one of the worst jungler in Korea, he was underestimated and only wished to prove people wrong.
And they did, both of them. Even though Huni was considered as a tilt lord, he carried Fnatic multiple times, even scoring a beautiful Quadra kill at Worlds.
That's what lead us to today. Today, Immortals is now 8-0 in the North America LCS, destroying every single opponent, being scared only once in their game against TSM, when they were left behind in the early game before coming back after many (bad) baron calls.
All the team is performing, Turtle has revived, he found a team who is able to follow him when he goes wild. Adrian, like always, is efficient and his Janna, Soraka, are a poison for the opponents.
Reignover has matured, a lot. Already strong after his season with Fnatic, he seems more confident, and is in every "first blood" of his team, putting pressure everywhere on the map.
Huni also seem more confident. Of course, we will only see that if Immortals lose someday, but Huni is still very efficient and also, less sensitive to the pressure.
Pobelter is still the same kind of player from when he played for CLG, but he found a team who trust him and where he fits without worries.
As of today, Huniand Reignover are now 26-0 in a regular split and it does seem like it's far from stopping. Will the two of them be able to end another perfect split? Huni believe so and is ready to take anyone who will try to stop this unbeaten run.
In the end, only the future will tell us if Immortals can truly stay immortals and if this team can become one of the best, or the best in the world.
But right now, this team is focused on the first split of the year and will probably continue to give us a show every time they goes on stage.
"What we have done for ourselves alone dies with us; what we have done for others and the world remains and is immortal"
The 4th week of the European LCS has ended yesterday with no real surprise, G2 Esports is continuing their insane start in the competition and are now 7-1, being only defeated by H2K.
Let's be honest here, when i saw the different teams for this split and their roster, i was skeptics about many teams, and in those teams were G2.
After failing 2 times in the Challenger Series, the organization led by the ex-professional, Ocelote, finally succeed to qualify for the LCS. It was a sort of redemption, the return of a King from the past. But Ocelote was only the manager this time, he didn't played. He left this painful task to his successor, Perkz. And he was the reason for my skepticism because, if you have the slightest interest for Esports, you will obviouly follow many tournaments, and not only LCS. You will also inform yourself as much as you can.
That's what i did, i saw Perkz many times in soloq, looking at pro's streams, and yes he was a good challenger, but he wasn't exceptionnal. He was a challenger like many others and got destroyed by Febiven every time i would have looked at his games. But Febiven at the time was already considered as one of the best midlaner in the worlds.
Truth is, i was wrong, i didn't expect G2 to be relevant. Well i wouldn't say that i believed those guys would be relegated right away, they were much worth team than them.
But what they showed these past 4 weeks put them in a position of favorite. The so called superteam that were supposed to be Vitality, H2k, Fnatic and Origen are not far behind, but for the last two, they've become weaker, a lot weaker than they were at Worlds.
And while Origen and Fnatic are struggling, both with their own problems to work on, G2 didn't deceive once, their games were clean, impressive and with a lot of agressivity.
The two Koreans, Trick and Emperor, were being looked at, because well, they are Koreans. But having Koreans doesn't mean you will find success, ask to Gravity or Sk Gaming, they failed.
But it's not the case here, Trick is an agressive and skilled jungler, but also ballsy, picking Udyr in their only loss against H2K was probably not the best choice, but he did make amend later on. Emperor was "known" since he played for TDK in North America last split and, alongside Ninja, did pretty well but couldn't escape relegations after many weeks fighting for visa issues.
Now, Emperor is hungry, and he proved it since the start of this split, rampaging on his Ezreal. With the addition and the swap from the jungle to the toplane of Kikis, the team did an unexpected choice. But Kikis is a strong player, and he adapted to his new position in no time.
The only ones left are Hybrid and Perkz, the 2 other newbies with Trick. The first one is the support and could be called a one-trick pony Braum since his attachment to this champion is really strong. And he did pretty well, of course is Braum is what you could call godlike, but his performance on other supports are also impressive.
Now come Perkz. As i said, i didn't expect much from him, but he prove me wrong and is now at the top of the standings, not only with his team but also individually. he is the second player with the most kills behind Zven, which is not rare but not really common amongst the midlaners. For him to be ahead of the best Ad carries in Europe, shows that is talent is here.
Perkz is probably the best midlaner in Europe right now. Febiven isn't as good as he was last split and Ryu has lost his right to play because of Visa issues which means Perkz is the new king in the midlane. His talent is growing weeks after weeks and he will continue to led the charge for his team like Ocelote did in the past.
Next week, G2 will face his most difficult schedule, facing not only Vitality, but also H2K who won in their first meeting and gave G2 his only defeat until now.
After winning against Fnatic and Origen, this is the real test for them at the moment, and if they can overcome it, there is no doubt G2 will truly be a favorite for the split alongside H2K.
From Challenger Series to the top of the standings, this reminds me a bit of Origen last year. But, unlike Origen who had 3 veterans, G2 is filled with rookies, Kikis being the most experienced with Emperor, but both only played 1 year as pros.
If the expansion of this team continue to grow better and stronger, there is no wonder that G2 could become a top team, first in Europe and then, maybe, hypotetically, also in the World. But that, is another story.
Tuesday and Friday saw the beginning of the 2016 EU LCS, once again in the studios in Berlin, Germany.
Many new teams, new players and new expectations were leading the start of the Spring Split as Fnatic and Origen, both semi-finalists at Worlds last year, were kicking-off the season in a game between titans.
After those two days of competition, here is what we've learned.
Unicorns of Love (2-0)
After the departure of their star midlaner, PowerofEvil, the expectations towards UoL were... limited. Without their leader and main carry, only few were still hoping for them to perform And those doubts just grows after Vardags left the team soon after.
But Sheepy and UoL choose wisely their replacements. and with the venue of Pierre "Steeelback" Medjaldi (ex-Fnatic and Imagine), Diamondprox (ex-Gambit) and Fox (ex-SK Gaming), the Unicorns gave a new hope to their fans with the possibility to still be relevant in Europe.
And they were relevant! Their opponents weren't the strongest but UoL managed to start with a 2-0 beating the newcomer Splyce in an one-sided game and then leading the charge against Giants Gaming, taking yet another huge victory over the Spanish team.
With a reborn Diamond and a still very good Steeelback, the team did very well for their start and look forward to ride this momentum.
G2 Esports (2-0)
End of 2013, Ocelote, one of the pillar of the EU LCS, leave the major league and go back into the shadow. For 2 years, the Spanish midlaner tried to come back in the LCS, for 2 years he failed, losing in the Challenger Series. But the time has come, yet again, for Ocelote to shine when his team, G2 qualified for the LCS.
This time as the manager, Ocelote created a team who could possibly compete in Europe. By adding the two Koreans, Trick and Emperor, he made sure to give his intention to his opponent, G2 wasn't there for nothing.
And they did not deceive. A complete victory over Elements and a big performance of Perkzz on Ahri and then a comeback against Roccat to end the 1st Week in the 1st place of the EU LCS.
Trick and Emperor did their job, The first one was everywhere, leading his gank and his team towards victory (27 KDA) when the second, a bit shy against Elements, showed himself against Roccat rampaging like a big fire.
Ocelote can be proud of his legacy, but it's only the start of a road of thorns.
H2K (2-0)
Hjarnan, Kasing and Loulex gone, H2K was nowhere to be relevant. Their mythic botlane was no more, their carries vanished, the team would struggle. But the organization striked back, recruiting the Greek ADC, Forg1ven, now free of his suspension. Alongside Vander and the "First Blood King", Jankos, the team was now looking bright, even more convincing than before, a new "superteam", a new "competitor for the crown".
They maintain this statut with a 2-0 start and a renewed Forg1ven, "by far" the best ADC in Europe. Indeed, with the second best KDA of this 1st week and 0 death, Forg1ven as shown all of his talent to the fans while his support, Vander, also did a great job leading H2K in their victories.
And it wasn't simple at first, Giants and Origen were their opponents after all but the first one was never a contender when the second one, was crushed for the second time in 2 days.
H2K is now looking to repeat this scenario over and over as they look to take the Split victory.
Roccat (1-1)
Disappointment and relegation were the master words when Roccat revealed his team soon before the start of the Split. All the players were gone, they needed to redo everything, rebuild from ashes.
So Roccat rebuild, with "leftovers", Edward and Betsy had no home anymore, Gambit Gaming was over, Jébus was left behind by Renegades. And then they added Airwaks and Fredy, two others veterans of the pro scene.
The path ahead of them seemed full of darkness but they answered back to the criticism. An unexpected victory over Vitality before going back to reality against G2. But the team has shown lot of potential and doesn't looked as bad as people thought. It will be a hard season for sure, but Roccat will not let others decide their fate.
Fnatic (1-1)
2015, Yellowstar is left alone with the role of Captain. With only rookies, the French Support managed to make miracles and won two consecutive Split before being Semi-Finalists at Worlds, making Europe proud.
What followed was something that shocked the scene. Yellowstar left the team to play in North America making of Febiven and Rekkles the "veteran" of Fnatic after their Korean duo also left for NA.
For the second time in two years, Fnatic had to support a lot of arguments, criticism and negativty from their "fans". For the second time, they had to rebuild almost everything.
That's what lead us to the venue of Gamsu, Spirit and Noxiak to fill the biggest franchise in Europe. Once again, with the same objective in mind, keeping their crown and their status as the "Kings of Europe".
But things are not that easy and Fnatic roll over Origen before getting shut down by Vitality. Fnatic wasn't favorite versus the squad of their ex-midlaner, Peke. But they did their job, and they did it well. Febiven and Spirit led the engages, sometimes ballsy, but it pay-out. Gamsu even offered the 1st highlight of the Spring Split after an incredible outplay against SoaZ and Amazing. Fnatic was back.... but not for long.
Indeed, the team coached by Deilor never existed in their game against Vitality. Gamsu got destroyed by Cabochard, while the two botlanes weren't taking any risks. In the end, Fnatic never found an answer to the French team, they got outrotated and outpressured and end up losing a game who felt like it never start for Fnatic.
Now, it's up to them to strike back and show that they are the true Kings of Europe.
Elements (1-1)
Elements was once a superteam lead by Froggen, but they never performed. Today, Froggen is gone and Elements almost vanished. But it didn't happen and now they have to face the European LCS again with a brand new roster.
PromisQ, now known as Sprattel, is the only player remaining from last split. Steve, Gilius and MrRallez operated their return in the LCS while Eika is a newcomer.
Replacing a guy like Froggen is not an easy task but Eika really disappointed for his first game, getting outplayed and outsmarted by another newcomer, Perkzz.
Elements quickly fall to G2 in their first game but responding in the best way the day after against Splyce, leading them to their 1st victory.
As of today, Elements is probably destined to fight against relegation, but the truth is never so simple and only the next weeks will show us what they are made of.
Team Vitality (1-1)
One of the new teams this split, one of the strongest.... on paper at least. The french organization, well-known for his Call of Duty team, decided to take part in the LCS this year.
And for that, they decided to bought a mythical spot, the one of Gambit Gaming, who was, with Fnatic and SK, the three greatest organization in Europe. Today SK has been relegated and Gambit sold their spot, only Fnatic remains.
But Vitality didn't bought Gambit spot just for show, they are here to win! Their hunger of success can really be appeased by the roster they gathered. Cabochard, Hjarnan and Kasing were all top 3 at their position last year! While Nukeduck is also a safe bet. The only dark point would come from Shook who has had many difficulties in the last 2 years.
Despite that, Vitality has the weapons to fight for the first place..... but it didn't materialized in their first game. While the majority were waiting for an easy victory over Roccat, Vitality failed their first step and lose heavily the game.
The day after, the team, led by a great Cabochard, took down the favorite of the crowd, Fnatic, in an one-sided battle. They didn't take a single scratch and punished every mistakes from Fnatic, looking like a complete different team.
Vitality can easily battle for the final victory, it's up to them to see if they are ready for it.
Splyce (0-2)
Dignitas EU won their right to participate to the EU LCS but the offseason shattered the team in some ways, Brokenshard was replaced and the name Dignitas disappeared as the yellow snake were looking for a prey.
It's in this optic that Splyce started the split. Sadly, the prey striked back 2 times and Splyce never existed in his two games. They were absent, they didn't got any control, their map pressure was almost non-existent and their decisions were late or not coordinated.
This ended in 2 heavy losses against Unicorns of Love and Elements. It seems that this entrance in the LCS will not be a good reminder in the future and Splyce will have to ease the pain in the next weeks or LCS will not last long for them.
Origen (0-2)
Since last year, the team has been created, won the Challenger Series, fight in the finals of the Summer Split against Fnatic, making them lose their first game since months and reached the Semi-finals of the World Championships!
Enrique "xPeke" Cedeno, had won his bet, his wish to create his own team after leaving Fnatic and making them perform and play in the LCS was achieved. Peke's myth had become even more amazing than before.
After Worlds came the IEM, and yet again, the team didn't deceive, and won the final against Counter Logic Gaming in a 3-0.
That goes without saying that, after what happened with Fnatic, Origen had become the huge favorite to win this year, even with PowerofEvil replacing Peke in the midlane.
For the fans, and many observors, Origenshould won easily against Fnatic and bring a domination in Europe. But Origen got crushed by the new Fnatic, as if the story will always remain the same, Origen find a wall named Fnatic, a wall that they couldn't climb, and once again, Peke's squad lose to the Kings.
That could have been the end of it, Origen would be back after this loss and compete again.
Instead, the Worlds semi-finalists, didn't move forward, they just stopped "working". Soaz was left behind in his two games, unable to strike back. After 2 days, he is the one who died the most (11 times) with the lowest KDA.
Niels(now known as Zven) was too far behind to be able to answer, so does PowerofEvil. Amazing probably played two of his worst games ever, being outplayed by Gamsu the 1st day.
Origen never found his breath weither it's against Fnatic or Vitality. They were just inexistant and thus, start the competition with a 0-2 start.
Everyone were (again) looking down on Fnatic but no one would have expected to see Origen behind everyone.
There is a lot of time to climb the ladder, but the engine must not take too long to start working.
Giants (0-2)
Pepinero has been alone many times before, seeking to carry his team in many occasions. This year does not seem any different. Giants was never really a danger for their opponents and, once again, Pepinero seemed to be the only bright light at the horizon. Despite many tentatives from Atom, the Spanish team never found a hole to go through.
The season is long and let the time for teams to find their own synergy. Let's just hope that Giants will find her.
The Championship Series are on their way, once again
Two months ago, SK Telekom T1 became the 1st team ever to win 2 World Championships and thus after only giving up 1 game in the whole tournament.
Next week will be the start of the 2016 League of Legends season with the beginning of the European LCS the 14th and the North America LCSthe 16th.
The preseason has been the witness of huge investments for all the teams. Reconstruction for some, little reinforcements for others, but what we know is that this season will probably be one of the most exciting season that League of Legends as ever known.
Indeed, the EU LCS look stronger than ever with the 2 Worlds semi-finalists Origen, reinforced by PowerOfEvil, and Fnatic who had too rebuild almost from ashes with only Martin "Rekkles" Larsson and Fabian "Febiven" Diepstraten as sole survivor of the team.
Alongside those two powerhouses, the European LCS is also made by others strong organisation, ready to prove their value to the world. It's in this perspective that Vitality and H2K have built their actual roster.
In fact, the recruitments of Vitality could easily lead the team to a battle for the 1st place while H2K have shown good things in the last IEM and could also bring trouble in the hierarchy like they did last split.
Finally, the other rosters also changed their rosters, sometimes for the best, sometimes the worst, like it might be the case of Roccat after losing their whole team. But in any case, this season should be more intense than any other in Europe.
Beside, North America has also been the center of attention with certainly the biggest deal ever realized by a North-American team, i'm talking of course about the Doublelift saga.
Leaving his team, Counter Logic Gaming, after a winning split but failed Worlds to join the ultimate enemy TSM, is a huge bet for the genius AD Carry. But with the venue of Kim "Yellowstar" Bora as his support, the botlane of TSM look much stronger than any other.
Also, the arrivals of Team Immortals, NRG, Renegade (winner of the Challenger Series) and Echo Fox. That goes without saying that North America has also grown up in the best way and will also be the theater of huge League of Legends games. We've been telling that since years now but, this time, what if North America had truly his word at Worlds?
This year will probably be the most exciting year of competition ever since the creation of the LCS and everyone will be gathered to cheer those teams and wish them success.
I, myself, wish to see what i expect after those 2 months of big announcements. Good video games!
And let us pray for NA and EU to finally improve and be able to truly challenge the Korean teams and the biggest personality in the world of LoL, Faker.
ctober 31rd, SK Telecom become the first team to win the World Championships 2
times. This marks the end of the 2015 season… but it also marks the beginning
of the preseason and thus the beginning of months of reconstruction for certain
teams and little adjustments for others. It also opens discussions about the
future of certains organizations, old and new ones.
Yesterday, the November 16th, has been
the witness of the second biggest announcement after the Yilian “Doublelift” Peng saga.
Indeed, Andy Miller and Mark Mastrov, both co-owners of the NBA
team, Sacramento Kings, grew in interests for the world of Esports and they
decided to bought the ex-Team Coast
LCS Spot for the 2016 season.
This purchase has led to the separation of 4 former-players from Coast
and left Kevin “Konkwon” Kwon has
the sole survivor.
Despite the loss of 4 great players, NRG has managed to form a team of monstrous
talent by bringing into the team an ex-world champion known as Impact who has ruled his toplane with
perfect strength and intelligence in the past. And it doesn’t stop there, NRG
has also managed to recruit 2 others well-known players in the LoL pro scene.
Indeed, both Johnny “Altec” Ru and Lee “GBM” Chang-Suk joined the team as
starter Midlaner and as AD Carry. Finally, the staff of NRG decided to give a
chance to a rookie, in the person of Galen
“Moon” Holgate, who has shown a lot of promises with Team Imagine this year
despite their loss against Team 8 in the Promotion Tournament.
Besides of the changes in the roster, the main staff of NRG will also be
composed of History Teacher as GM, Charlie as the Head Coach and Hermit as the Strategic Coach. Those 3
will be accompanied in this adventure by 5 other peoples who will be helping
the team in many ways.
This marks the start of a New Era. This will turn upside down the
rankings. This team is ready to bring chaos in the North America LCS. It’s the beginning of a new book.
PS: This was originally a try-out article for NRG medias
When i was young, i always thought that i would end up in a big house, with a lovely wife that i would make happy every single day, a beautiful dog and my 2 childs.
I always thought that my dreams would become true, that i would face many problems but that they would never stop me.
I tought that i would be happy, successful, at least that's what i wanted, i wanted to be recognized, i wanted the people who were looking down on me to look up to me in the end, i wanted to show those same people that they were wrong, that i could succeed, that i could make my life the way i wanted her to be.
I was wrong... Today, i failed, i failed my studies, i'm still single, i've been rejected many times, i'm not really ashamed by that, i mean, why whould i? At least i tried right? I don't have particular regrets today. I didn't give up, i kept trying but in the end, the result was the same....
But, it's not a bad thing, the fact that i failed, just kept me strong. Someone who will know only the success will have a hard time dealing with failure once she got there. But as for me, i constantly fight with failure. I didn't fulfill my dreams, i had many but all of them failed, at least for now. There are some that i must forget but there are some who are still here in my head and in my heart.
I know that the society today is a place full of fear, distress, anger, deception, regrets. I know that some days are hard, others will make you smile and feel alive.
Yes i failed, and i assume my failures, but that doesn't mean i should just stay here and cry over myself, i would never do that. There is no one except me who can tell me to stop believing, no one can tell me to stop trying. I'm 22 years old now, maybe i will die soon, maybe i will have a long life, nobody knows that. Not me, not you, not the farmer 20 000 miles away from here, not the politician looking at the votes. This world is full of difficulties but that doesn't mean we should give up. Like i said, someday i will end up dying, like my mother, my brother, my grandfather, my friends, we will all die, some are already in the other world, some are still here.
So why should i give up? why should i stop trying to do what i want, to do what i love? Because in the end, someday, i will not be here anymore, someday time will change, years will goes by, people will change and no one will even remember me. After all, only few are remembered, only few will never be forgotten.
I want to keep trying and i will, even if i failed in the end, i will continue to grow, learn and try, try, try, try over and over until i succed or until i die because if i stop here, my life will be meaningless, my life will be poor, my life will be ..... a normal one, i don't want that...
I don't want to sit on my chair waiting for the days to end and start again, i don't want to see people i once known being happy with everything they need while i'm watching from the side...
For the longest time, i wanted to be a football player, playing professionnal, being recognized but maybe i wasn't good enough or maybe i didn't try hard enough. That's why i don't want my dream today to become impossible again.
These last years, i've tried to become a journalist, yes that's right, a journalist, but not you're everyday journalist who will travel in the entire world to bring you news of disaster, or news of royalty, or even talking to you about Beckham new brand, i don't give a fuck about that.
No, i want to become a Sports Journalist, one who will talk to you about football, basketball, but more than this, about Esports.
Because the world change, our hobbys, our jobs change as well. Since many years now, the world of Esports has constantly grown, from thousands of fans to millions, from your little hangar to a big stadium playing before thousands of people. Esports is now a huge world where it's difficult to make your place like in every other job. People are trying everyday to be a part of Esports, from players to staff, to journalist or even translator, it has become difficult to be a part of this world as well... But i don't want to give up yet, i still think that someday i will find a chance, and i think that someday i will finally found the happiness i'm seeking.
That's why, from now on and until i decide otherwise, i will try to become a part of this industry, because i can't just look from apart and be jealous in my own room right? I will try, harder and harder every day, and maybe one day, i will have what i wanted.
This is for this reason that from today onwards, i will write about Esports. My name is Kevin Fischweiler and i'm an Independant Esports Writer.
